A Face of Lyme Disease

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I was so exhausted the other day. I felt like a zombie. All I wanted to do was crawl into my cozy bed and read, but there was dinner to make, dishes to wash, and laundry to finish.

I could barely put one foot in front of the other. The minute Don walked in the door, I disappeared upstairs. I’d been dying to try this charcoal mask my friend Gia sent me from Beauty Counter and it was calling my name.

After I put the mask on, I saw the face of Lyme looking back at me through the mirror. My skin was the exact shade of our bathroom walls. I could have disappeared. My face hardened to the point that I couldn’t speak. In that moment, I became my chronic illness: invisible and silent, blending into the world.

I often get asked what it’s like to have Lyme disease. Before I was diagnosed, I truly had no idea. I thought that if someone got bit by a tick, they would take antibiotics and be cured. Unless you catch Lyme right away, it’s not like that at all. It’s really hard to describe what it feels like, but gray comes pretty close.

Every day I fight to participate in my own life. Besides the annoyance of taking medicine every day, there’s the rollercoaster of aches and pains, the tilt-a-whirl of nausea, and the marathon of exhaustion. There’s too many ups and downs to keep track. The worst part is never knowing what each day will bring and the fear and anxiety it creates.

Some days I feel like I’m lost. People describe it as brain fog. I walk around feeling uncertain of what to do next as the clock ticks on. I can’t remember things. I don’t feel like I’m in charge. It’s an awful feeling and unfortunately it comes and goes at least twice a week, some days worse than others.

I still have mono but the symptoms are lessening. I’m past the extreme heaviness, but feel like a zombie sometimes — especially after a busy day.

I’m thankful for the healthy food choices I make because I know it’s helping my body heal. The doctor who developed the herbal protocol I’m taking, Dr. Cowden, recommends a diet free of gluten, dairy, corn, soy, and sugar. I was mostly eating this way before my Lyme diagnosis a year ago. I’m more mindful of what I put in my body now more than ever. I really can feel the difference.

I’m so ready to be healthy every day. To wake up in a good mood, ready to greet the day. To feel good all day every day for a whole week. To go for a long walk, drink a glass of wine, and not worry about overdoing it. Enough already, Lyme. 

Life isn’t always unicorns and rainbows, but I much prefer when it is.

Gazpacho Andaluz

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La Plaza Mayor in Madrid, Spain

After a few years of tweaking, I’ve finally perfected my recipe for Gazpacho Andaluz, a soup made of raw vegetables and served cold. You’ll love this easy, naturally gluten free and vegan recipe!

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Don and I took an amazing trip to Paris and Madrid in 2013. I hadn’t been back to Madrid since college. So much of the city had changed, yet the food stayed the same: gazpacho, paella, sangria, patatas bravas, tortilla espanola.

For me, gazpacho is summer in a bowl.

As soon as we got home, I started experimenting with different combinations of vegetables to make my gazpacho taste exactly as did in the Plaza Mayor. I needed to recreate that experience of sitting under a misting umbrella with cobblestones underfoot and a sangria in my hand. For the longest time, I couldn’t figure out what ingredient I was missing. Finally I realized that the secret ingredient to Gazpacho Andaluz is white balsamic vinegar! 

Gazpacho Andaluz - Under the Monkey Bars blog

Gazpacho Andaluz - Under the Monkey Bars blog

I made Gazpacho Andaluz a few weeks ago when I was a guest chef at Mandarava Kitchen. Newburyport Olive Oil graciously contributed their robust white balsamic vinegar to cook with that night. It definitely elevates the flavor! If you haven’t tried their oils and vinegars, it’s quite an experience! I have a few more favorites, which I’ll be sharing soon in my next recipe post from our Mandarava tapas menu.

It only takes 15 minutes to make this soup without a stove or pot in sight. Don’t peel anything and only cut each veggie into chunks. Let the blender do the work for you! Once you quickly chop each ingredient, toss it into the blender. When the soup is ready, the only clean up should be a cutting board, knife, blender and spatula — don’t leave behind a drop!

This type of gazpacho is the traditional preparation you would experience if you visited the southern region of Andalusia in Spain. Gazpacho is particularly popular during hot summer nights because it is refreshing and cold. The color is perfection.

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Photo credit: Meg Manion Photography

Gazpacho Andaluz is a recipe that the whole family will enjoy. You can make it ahead and store it for up to 4 days in the refrigerator. Serve it as is or with toppings to stir in, such as cucumbers, peppers, red onion, parsley, and croutons. It’s the perfect summer recipe for a no-stress dinner.

When I studied abroad in Madrid during college back in 1998, my Señora Encarna would say, “Cómelo todo!” at dinnertime. It translates to, “Eat it all!” I sometimes say it to my monkeys with a smile, remembering that incredible experience. That’s why I include “Cómelo todo!” at the end of my recipe posts as a tribute to the lovely lady who made sure I was well fed all those years ago in Spain.

Try this Gazpacho recipe and let me know how you like it in the comments or click on the stars to review it. Cómelo todo!

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  1. 2½ pounds tomatoes (about 8 medium)
  2. 2 medium cucumbers
  3. 2 small sweet red peppers
  4. 1 yellow or white onion
  5. 3 cloves garlic
  6. 1/4 cup white balsamic vinegar
  7. 1/4 cup extra virgin olive oil
  8. 1-2 tablespoons of honey or agave
  9. 1/2 teaspoon cumin powder
  10. 1 teaspoon sea salt
  11. Freshly ground pepper to taste
  1. Wash the vegetables and cut into chunks, leave the skin on the cucumber.
  2. If you're using a large high speed blender, everything should fit into one batch. Otherwise purée in small batches until smooth.
  3. Adjust the seasonings to taste.
  4. Let sit for several hours or overnight in the fridge. The garlic flavor will become stronger over time. Serve chilled.
  1. - Use organic ingredients when possible.
  2. - Yields 48 ounces.
  3. - This gazpacho will keep for 4 days.
  4. - Newburyport Olive Oil's white balsamic really boosts the flavor in this recipe.
Adapted from Farm Girl Fare
Adapted from Farm Girl Fare
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My Guest Chef Experience at Mandrava Kitchen

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Last week I cooked and served a mediterranean tapas dinner as a guest chef at Mandarava Kitchen in Newburyport. At 39, I wasn’t expecting to feel the exhilaration of a new experience, but I did. It was incredible and I loved every minute!

Before I tell you all about what it was like to be a chef for the night, let’s rewind ten years. I didn’t enjoy cooking, not even a tiny bit. I was queen of all things in a box: pasta with a jar of sauce and macaroni & cheese were a few of my greatest hits. We ordered takeout or went out to eat about 5 times a week.

Here I am now, a stay at home mom with a few cooking lessons plus hours of cooking at home asked to be a guest chef! I’m still pinching myself. How did this even happen?

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It all started on Instagram. One day I posted a picture of a salad I made for lunch and Chef Mary Vyn commented saying that I should come cook with her at Mandarava. The next time I was in for lunch I asked, “Were you serious? I’d love to!” And so the planning began for my debut as a guest chef!

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Mandarava is a vegan, organic restaurant that offers one bowl for lunch based on the buddhist philosophy. It’s a scratch kitchen and their homemade bread is almost always gluten free. Therefore, our entire menu for my guest chef dinner was both gluten free and vegan: a perfect match for me. It’s such a challenge to eat out when you are conscious about what you eat. At Mandarava, I know the food is always going to be healthy and delicious.

When I arrived at 2pm, Mary and I enjoyed a cup of tea together while going over the menu details for our tapas dinner. We loosely put together the menu via emails and texts with room to create on the fly. So we nailed down some details over tea and decided who would start cooking what. With 6 courses, we had a lot of chopping ahead of us!

My Guest Chef Experience at Mandarava Kitchen - Under the Monkey Bars Blog

My Guest Chef Experience at Mandarava Kitchen - Under the Monkey Bars Blog

My Guest Chef Experience at Mandarava Kitchen - Under the Monkey Bars Blog

I made the gazpacho, hummus, roasted carrots, and salad from start to finish. Mary created melt-in-your-mouth vegan cheez-its, mission figs, paella, and peaches. Together we baked the bread, garnished, and plated. The entire meal was truly a collaboration.

Tapas Menu:
– Stuffed Mission Figs with a Cashew Cream
Gazpacho Andaluz
– Marjoram Skewered Rainbow Carrots with Hummus
– Arugula Salad with Oranges and Pepitas dressed with Newburyport Olive Oil & Vinegar
– Sweet Pepper Paella
– Grilled Peaches with Maple Cream

My Guest Chef Experience at Mandarava Kitchen - Under the Monkey Bars Blog

My Guest Chef Experience at Mandarava Kitchen - Under the Monkey Bars Blog

My Guest Chef Experience at Mandarava Kitchen - Under the Monkey Bars Blog

My Guest Chef Experience at Mandarava Kitchen - Under the Monkey Bars Blog

Mary made me feel so welcome in the kitchen, but when I got started I was a little unsure of myself. Once I knew where to find everything, things went smoothly and I was super comfortable. We chatted and listened to the Cowboy Junkies. Chopping and roasting, blending and baking. It was actually quite relaxing, and so much fun.

Even though we’d never cooked together, Mary and I had such amazing synergy in the kitchen. We completed each others dishes and finished each other’s sentences. It was such a beautiful collaboration of creativity. I learned so much about what it’s like to work in a kitchen that night.

My Guest Chef Experience at Mandarava Kitchen - Under the Monkey Bars Blog

My Guest Chef Experience at Mandarava Kitchen - Under the Monkey Bars Blog

When the guests arrived, one of my friends called me Chef Westermann. That’s definitely something I’ve never heard before! After it registered, it sounded really good.

I never dreamed of being a chef. Now that I’ve planned, prepped, cooked, and served a successful six course tapas dinner at Mandarava Kitchen, maybe that’s a possibility. Who knows what the future holds! I could actually see myself going to culinary school. Either way, it’s certainly a passion.

My Guest Chef Experience at Mandarava Kitchen - Under the Monkey Bars Blog

My Guest Chef Experience at Mandarava Kitchen - Under the Monkey Bars Blog

I’m beyond grateful to Chef Mary for the opportunity to cook in her magical kitchen. It was already a happy place for me and I’ve definitely made it even happier by experiencing what it’s like to be on the other side of the counter. Thank you to the mother daughter owners of Mandarava Kitchen: Ellie and Mary, for trusting me and welcoming me into your special space. I look forward to setting a date to cook together again in the Fall!

Thank you to our dinner guests. Your constant mmmmm’s and easy conversation made my job a breeze! It was wonderful to cook for my super supportive friends and husband that night. It’s been humbling to have so many people believe in me.

Meg Manion Photography beautifully captured so many moments from that evening, even though the lighting was not ideal. Thank you Meg!

Blogging has opened some intriguing doors. Thanks for joining me on this adventure. Stay tuned for recipe posts from our tapas menu coming to the blog soon!

Will She Still Call Me Mommy?

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When Bean turns 11 tomorrow, will she still call me Mommy?

My baby girl, almost as tall as me now. She barely fits in my lap, and she’s starting to “borrow” my clothes.

Will she call me Mommy for just another year? And then another year more?

I can’t even think about it. I know my time is short but I didn’t realize how quickly this day would come.

We ran into a friend at the grocery store last week. The monkeys were excited to see her and literally took turns hugging her over and over. She practically melted, telling me that her teenage daughter just started hugging her again.

It took my brain a few minutes to register what she said. Wait, she stopped HUGGING YOU? How can that be? I live for the hugs, the kisses, and holding my daughters’ sweet hands.

I can’t live in a world where my monkeys don’t hug me. 

For years, it seemed like all I heard was Mommy, Mommy, Mommy. I couldn’t even use the bathroom without one of them calling me. And I complained about it.

Now here I am thinking about the possibility of NOT hearing her say Mommy…and I’m devastated.

Bean is growing up. It’s happening. She’s turning into a witty, kind, and spirited little lady. I’m so proud of her and can’t wait to see what the world has in store for her. 

But at the same time, I really just want to freeze time. She’s growing up way too fast. And I know it’s inevitable that I’ll start hearing her call me Mom.

I might be okay with it when the time comes, but for now: Will she still call me Mommy?

Long Winter Farm

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They did it. Our friends purchased a 49 acre farm in Stowe, Vermont. Long Winter Farm is truly magical! 

It’s not just a farm. Surrounded by breathtaking mountains, Long Winter Farm is an organically driven farm with a vision of nourishing the Nebraska Valley. It’s a work in progress like most things in life, but in our eyes, it’s already perfect. 

We met the farm’s owners, Annie and Andrew Paradee, through the Busters ski program at Stowe Mountain. Annie was Sweet Pea’s ski coach last season. We wouldn’t have made it through the dark days of March after Don’s injury without her grocery deliveries and hours of babysitting. She’s quickly become an irreplaceable part of our village.

I’m so incredibly proud of these two! Annie and Andrew had a dream, and now it’s become a reality. They’re actually farmers. Along with some help from friends and family, they’ve been working extra long days to set up their start-up farm since passing papers through Stowe Land Trust this past April. A few of their many accomplishments include cleaning out the barns, planting organic seeds, and building a chicken coop.

We visited Long Winter Farm for the first time a few weeks ago. I’d been following updates on Facebook and Instagram since the winter, so couldn’t wait to actually see the farm in person and, of course, give Annie a big hug.

But seeing everything through the monkeys eyes was even better than seeing it for myself. The girls were beyond excited with tons of questions. What kind of fruits and vegetables will you grow? Do the chickens peck you? Can I pet one? How many eggs do they lay a day? What other animals will you have at the farm? There’s so much to learn about farm life.

Annie is no longer just Coach Annie. She now owns a farm with crops, chickens, eggs, pigs, and a shiny blue tractor. She’s the same person we know and love but now she and her husband have made their dream of owning a farm come true.

When we got in the car to head home, Sweet Pea said, “I wonder what their next dream will be….” She noticed that a dream came true for our friends, truly a powerful moment for me as a Mom. I couldn’t have picked better role models for the monkeys if I tried. 

We’re so honored to have these two in our lives. Do you know a farmer? I highly recommend it.